The last few weeks I have been struggling with feeling very inadequate as a mother. I have looked at others, and have found myself and my children lacking. This is something that plagues most (all) moms at one time or another.
I have been praying some about this. The Holy Spirit brought to mind the scripture about "judging themselves by themselves". This started me thinking, just who am I and my children supposed to be judging ourselves and modeling our life after? Why, it's Jesus! So, I asked the Lord what He thought, and asked Him to show me where I was failing. I have felt so condemned, as the enemy of my soul flung (some true, some half-true, some out right lies) accusations at me. I was listening and hearkening more to his voice than God's. But, you know what? God didn't do that. He reminded me of what I needed to be doing, and I realized I (really 'da Dad and I) have been doing it,mostly. So, if God is for me and my husband is pleased (he is- I asked, no one else's opinion/comments matter. We are not to fear men, but God alone. Also, please note how many times I used "feel" in the above. Feelings are not truth. Only Christ and God's word are truth.
Some scripture that came up in my quiet time reminded me that I need to be taking my refuge in the Lord when satan comes at me with his charges.
"In You, O Lord, I put my trust; let me never be put to shame. Deliver me in Your righteousness, and cause me to escape;incline Your ear to me, and save me. Be my strong refuge, to which I may resort continually;You have given the commandment to save me,for You are my rock and fortress." Psalm 71:1-3
"For You are my hope, O Lord God;You are my trust from my youth.By You I have been held up from birth; You are He who took me out of my mother's womb. My praise shall be continually of You. I have become as a wonder to many, but You are my strong refuge. Let my mouth be filled with Your praise and with Your glory all the day." Psalm 71: 5-8
That really helped my focus yesterday. I actually have these posted on the bathroom mirror ( a pregnant lady's favorite place) so I can memorize it. It helps so much to break the "crazy cycle" in my mind to switch over to God's thoughts, expressed through His word.
School is going well. I had a hard time getting much else done yesterday, so I need to work on that. (ok the computer won't go off italics.)
Psalm 72 Proverbs 14
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